Better Late Than Never

It's been a while...to say the least. So many things have happened since I last wrote, some good, some bad, some absolutely amazing.

1. Moved to a new apartment.
Two bedrooms was a tight fit for Jamee, Bee, & I so it was time to move. Got an amazing three bedroom in the newest complex. Best part is...full size washer & dryer!!!

2. Bee and Slash's dad signed away all parental rights. And I agreed to it.
Signed the paperwork just before he left for his new duty station across the country. Makes absolutely no sense to anybody, but I understand why he made the choice and in the long run, it will be he who misses out. I still cry though. I still love him and miss him terribly. And I feel like I failed my children in this aspect. Eventually I'll explain it, but I'm too hormonal to do it without crying right now.

3. I'm addicted to my job.
Or rather I should say, I'm addicted to the office job they had me doing. I delayed my maternity leave to orientate the two people who would be taking over while I was gone, but had to cram in all the information into 3 days. Since being gone, I've received numerous e-mails from various people at work needing my help. Makes me feel needed and appreciated at least. There's a major inspection going on though. And even though I'm not even there and there's nothing I can do about it, I know it's going to be a reflection on my work. Resisting the urge to go by work...just to see...just to make sure...

4. Slash is here.
8:27a.m. June 3rd, my handsome little man made his screaming entrance into this world. He's definitely got my mouth...and his daddy's big wide head. They had to use the vacuum to get it out of my pelvis. 19 3/4" weighing 6lbs 13oz, he's almost as long as Bee was, but a lot skinnier. Actually only fit into preemie sizes for awhile. Trista was in the O.R. with me. Dressed like a lesbian so nobody would wonder why there was no dad there. What can I say? I have some amazing friends!!! He looks like Bee did when she was born, except his hair is lighter. I've got two babies now that look like their daddy and it breaks my heart sometimes to look at them. I wouldn't change a thing about them though.

5. Getting sick as a single mom is hard.
Bee stayed with Tasha while I was in the hospital and for two days after. I missed that little love bug so much...she seemed huge when I finally saw her. She ended up sick that night and mommy got it two days later. I had the common sense to call Tasha for help, knowing I wouldn't be able to keep up with Bee. Tasha's mom came and got her and I crawled into bed with Slash. After long hours of my insides turning themselves inside out, I got up to change Slash and promptly passed out from dehydration. Another phone call to Tasha and she sent her brother in law over to give me a hand. He brought me a few glasses of ice water and all the things to change Slash and left. The next day I was weak and light headed and my incision hurt from my muscles forcing everything out. I haven't been sick like that in years. Made me feel pretty bad not being able to take care of my kids, but thank goodness I had people I could count on. I am blessed.